I read your writing here occ. and I want tell you how I think of you as one mature human being. First of all, you are very smart one, simply you graduated from Seoul National University, the school upgrade the high school if student pass the enterance exam, in my time in the country side. 2nd, you have The God given tallent to write, and contributed here with that skill over the many years and open the eyes of the readers this site. You never cheat the anybody and work hard all your life. 3rd, you are still spring chicken, chronological age doesn't matter. over 90 yrs is old now days. Find yourself who you are and no pay any tention of other people's opinion. So what, if you are senile as they say, what is wrong if you donot remember as you used to be, after all you are over 70's. Follow the natural flow and don't fight. I believe you are very healthy 70s old smart man, who always put effort to improve self and help other people, excellent human being. Have confidence as you deserve Zen. I always admire you who you are.I will say again don't pay any attention of othes what they say. Believe yourself that you are Good.